waste farking time

machiam backup plan like that

Lost interest

Fast

Nov

And still counting

Gonna take at least 5 years I guess
It's ok la actually. Used to it already. How long liao. Hahahahaha. Too embarrassed to even talk about it

 They say bitten once. twice shy

I say it's bitten once. 5ices shy


Things on my mind right now
Doubts.  Worries for the unknown. The thing that is holding me back from going into full force. Seeing myself shutting up and not enjoying for the holiday. Watching the drama unfold between them. In between of not knowing what I want and knowing what I want.

That is a situation that is really fucked up.

Blog. Can you be my friend for once. Just tell me what to do.

...

Ok the usual no reply.

Blog's own  interest is better. Mine is the most boring. So no further comment. End of story. End of conversation. The next conversation would still be blog's interest.




Never mind haha. I'm used to this kind of situation already. Just sad. No wonder I'm beginning to think going for any event alone is pretty good. Don't need to act like so interested in other people's life and 'entertain' them. Do what i farking like.

Still think it's pretty cool to go for a holiday by myself some day. Anywhere. Just alone

Hot and cold

Cold and hot

Wdf?

Time won't wait Probably the most irritating thing is get for granted Minding my own business

there's this ramen u can order how many servings of ramen mee u want. up to 5

i ORDERED 5 SERVINGS OF RAMEN

i swear i will never order 5 SERVINGS OF RAMEN EVER

4 SERVINGS.
AND I ALMOST DIED while eating

lol.

first time watch 2 cinema show in a day

gravity
about time

both good show...

surprisingly about time was better

it's about this guy who have the ability to travel back in time.

good. sets me thinking a bit also after the whole show

i can't travel back in time
live as though everyday is your last

ok la. easier said than done actually.

usually it's

SLEEP. NUA. DONT DO A SINGLE SHIT

and wonder why nothing get's done

lol

can't live as though it is your last

but a good message though

Steve Jobs last few word.

"Life is fragile"

"This world rules are meant to be broken, and that means not living your typical 4 walls. Keep poking at something and when something comes out the other side"

Never been a fan with him. And I guess still never will. Just that happen to watch his youtube documentary "one last thing"


got asked
what's holding you back
GUESS WHAT
"where you going?"
"i go home"
LOL
the LOL here is sacarstic
worried probably the "still ongoing world longest" drama is going to happen all over again
if it's made into a drama show. i think there will be what, 100 seasons of boring show
LOL
ok bye

ok i shall really stop here.

Options

UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!
UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!
UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!

life is a joke man seriously

deny creep

Deny creep

Deny more. And never spread the word



Hahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahah

Fat say I am the worse.

Yes I am the worse

Hahahahahahabahabababavagavavavahh

I flunk exams.

I sleep during class.

I let chances fly by

I even flunk the solo given to me

I dragged the whole band down





YESSSSSS!!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOO

Dododododod do a dear. Doooohhh female dear

Reh reh a drop of waiting forever son

Meeeee. A name. I change until I DONT KNOW MYSELF

FARRRR. Wdf am I still here!?!?!?

Sooooooo. A little pulling stunt trainnnn

laaaaaaaaa. Go where. I go home!!! Hahahahahahahahaa. I didnttttt. I went library


Fark the ti doh.



There's is no do, reh, mi. Only mi, mi, mi

I just need to invest another 5 years.  Its all good man. My dog is already 6 years old. Its all good. Hahahahahabaabbabvavavag



Even my sis say I am like the most stupidest person in the world. 26 and still studyjng. Even the china man who got it is only 22. LOLOLLOLOLOL. Army. We love army. We serve and squat for 2 years. And we get denied after waiting forever and ever for 1 farking reply. Just to get denied by. "Where you going". "I go home". I go library trolllllllllolollololol.


Hahahahaahahabababalololol. Life's a bitch

i talk

and i keep talking

and i keep talking and talking

and i keep talking and talking and talking

and i keep talking and talking and talking and talking

and i keep talking and talking and talking and talking and talking

and i keep talking and talking and talking and talking and talking and talking

and i keep talking and talking and talking and talking and talking and talking and talking


i stop for just a litttttlllee bit.

and i realized

THE SQUASH WALL is a wall that DOES NOT RETURN BALL

hahahahahahahahahahaahahahahhaha

it's like void() function

no return variable

HAHAHAHAHhaahahahahahah

and i don't even know

why i started at the

i talk part

period

LOLOLOLOLOLOLLTROLOLOKLOL

ok i admit.

i just smoked for the 2nd time in my entire life

what's the fuss about it man?

still don't get it

Who is me


I am a maiddddd!!!!!!

I report to my mam

and I have a secret boyfriend

I borrow handphone from my mam's daughter to sextalk my boyfriend every night


hahahahahahahahahahahahah




even my maid does it better than me

AHAHHAhahahahahahahahahahahahah




Actually I don't have a maid sadly

so why does my maid does it better!?!?!?


haHAHhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaAHhah



life is so short

i CANT MAKE LIFE taller


HAHahhahahahahaAHAHhahahahahahaAHahha







ok stop. i'm going insane.

ok

YES

I KNOW

omg

LOL

woof

bark

what does the fox say

the fox say i am a shit

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahah

lOl

trolololol

joke

lol

trololol

muhahaha

lol

joke

sad

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

still don't know shit about me

BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

BEERS

more BEERS

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

gonna go down

still can remember that 5 images in my head very clearly

1.S
2.W
3.L
4.T
5.C

lololololololololololololololololololololololololololololol

joke

gonna stay with me for quite some time

No remorse

No hard feeling




Actually have!!!!! Hahahahahaahhahaha  trolling trolling Lolololo lo lol

still have to cut it after multiple backspaces

never invest.

only sabo

went for mbs some mooncake event thing temp job briefing.

convention hall. was late for 30 min? but luckily they never said anything.

 I SWEAR i saw and count the mooncakes boxes there are SO MANY until 

i think for my whole lifetime i can eat breakfast, lunch, dinner of mooncakes

until the day i die

and there are still some remaining for my descendants

lol

saw quite a lot of pretty girls over there also

:X

gonna do from 13 to 19 i think.

fab was assigned to the paiza, which apprently is some casino place on the upper decks for the elites, like generals and stuffs

not too sure, heard about it

think mine is all days at the convention hall. except on the 14 got assigned to some casino event

which is called "unlock the car door"

seriously? sounds weird lol

never brief too much though. so on the day itself then know what to do

think the leader says can continue to do for F1 after on 20, 21.

probably not going to do. tempted. but going to see how rush is for my fyp also.

friend of mine went and do concept art of the loporous character for our game alche ale cooper. looks good to me. maybe after graduation, can try and do a indie game out of it. since ps4 supports indie community and can self publish. if there are enough concept arts, i can try and look for modeller next.

really want to see and develop the full game. first time i ever poured out my heart to do and think of a game from the ground up

and ya. i hate this multimedia shit. so distracted. lying on the bed and reading through the tutorial.

worried for game development test. might fail. 

WOILA. if really fail. i'm really gonna be damn sad.

going to do a acoustic music youtube video with that weird person. meeting up and seeing how it goes again.

think i'm gonna fall sick soon. running nose like nobody business.

ok la bye.

아마 결코 그 날을 잊지 않기 위해 합니다.

좋은 것 그것이 일어났습니다. 그리고 위쪽으로 대접된 't가 주지 않았습니다. 의사의 다발. 우리는 2 측면 얼굴 yeahhhhh를 경작합니다. 그러나 최후에는 그것은 보입니다.

Holidaying에게 안에 후회와 함께. Ughhhh. 불쾌하게 됩니다

ㄹ 수 있는 't의 either에 그것에 대하여 배변합니다.

Neglected my room private 'theatre' for quite some time

so I fired it up and stream shows to my ps3 to see.

Watched project x

Oh my gawd. if you think you seen how people have private parties. Should watch this show. This is to the extreme kind. Kind of felt sorry for the main guy. Sacrificed his entire life for that 1 night. But the girl inside looks pretty to me though. Unbelievable ending though. Reality ain't like that. Sigh

Waste time waste money waste effort.

*ps


S4 번역 빨아들임.

번역은 위쪽에 정확하지 않습니다. 이것은 제 마음에 머무릅니다. 전혀 이 블로그.

이것은 정확합니다.

당신이 괴롭힌 좋은 것. 결과가 증명을 하는군요. 하하


dota2 with korean commentary english subtitle. epic funny!!!


Probably laughed till I almost died

love for what they are

not what you want them to be

Something isn't quite right

And usually I'm quite accurate on this

quite obvious also.

anyway...

been addicted to initial D again. went and see initial D fifth stage anime

the cars.

and the music they play in the background when racing

oh my brings back the nostalogic again. damn nice

addicted to initial D music again on my IPOD also

had to take a break from my usual playlist of rock 'n' roll music

fifth stage has quite a nice playlist of new eurobeat music



can't wait to get my personal car in the future. and play this kind of music when driving

HAHahaaha.

just a thought >.<

won't speed anyway. that age has long past me. still remember that time speed on the highway like around 180km

 lives is more important


and....


saw jia wah in the morning, at the bus stop, he's heading to work

and during class i finally manage to draw a pixel out

damn funny. cause when u compile and run the program

i was like searching for that VERY small pixel on that screen

and my head was like very near to the screen searching for that VERY small pixel

and fab was like trying to wipe the screen in case the pixel was a dirt sticking on that screen

HAHAHa.

buay tahan

all of us went JEM after class.

fab wanted to get his new pair of jeans.

cause he said his belly is getting fatter and he can't button his current jeans

rofl

all of his late night supper. potato chips. and so on

for me i do not have the problem of buttoning my shorts, jeans, whatever

at all

it's just the problem of whether my pants is 'dropping'

because i'm getting thinner

rofl

2 different worlds


so... we went and upon reaching clementi mrt. only me and daryl saw ajisen ramen advertisment. $7.50 for their spicy ramen and ajison ramen

crystal and fabian DIDN't see the advertisment at all. although it was like damn big

wah laoz.

tunnel vision rofl

so we went ajisen ramen place to eat

talking cock as a group again.

hahaha. such laughables topics. something like the ass was burning for me and fab because we went and eat maggi goreng at bukit timah yesterday. and the next morning both of us were lao-saing

and the ramen i'm eating is spicy ramen. so all of them conclude my ass is gonna burn again the next morning

think i should better appreciate the group. could be our very last few gatherings already

think all of us should be going to some place to drink after this semester.

probably should bring them to demsey road to see. should be a v nice and quiet place to sit down and chill

after that went to JEM

didn't manage to get his jeans.

and i wanted to get that very desired chino shorts at topman. but didn't again.

probably because i do not want to spend that money.

haiz. will get it sooner or later

and ya. my current asus mouse left click spoiled. had to get a new mouse.

necessity

got my mouse. $39. a very low budget logitech gaming mouse. saw another one going for $69. but i conclude shouldn't get that cause didn't saw the need

 should last me quite awhile i guess



strange phenomenon. always when money 'comes' in.

this spoil.

that spoil

then have to 'spend' that money

never ending trend haha.

okok got to do my program now. didn't touch at all cause was sleeping the whole day again

done

said

at the end of the day...

still the same

Time really felt like flying past me like a rocket

Confirmed. Think I'm gonna get weight gainer online

After my this nap. Didnt sleep like almost 24 hours already

Just a few more days. And school life is like gonna end soon already

Met up with gee chuan, wenkai, lyon and shane

Heard a lot of things. Including what's happening to the people around me. Quite surprised at some things I will never know if they don't say. Felt a bit disgusted also.

Networking with people. One of the few advantages I guess

Got lots of things to write, just that don't know how to put into words

nap first bye

I drive bmw

Bus, mrt, walk


Finally can lie on bed.

Sleep.

Bye

Damn tired.

Meeting early

gonna doze off on the bus liao.

guess after this I will go back and nap. And start chionging


Look far.

Think ahead.

See potential



Not many know

give more

take less

Easy to say.Hard to do

It's not about how much a person can give.

but the why

Done

Said

at the end of the day...

Anyway I thought the 2nd one was damn nice

Thinking of getting a weight gainer online... at the rate I'm going. Can never reach the target by the end of the year

Think i need an extremely long time for myself also.

Don't get it why I should lock.

Nothing to hide

Anyway korean bbq at east coast  was damn nice. Saw Gregory over there as well. Surprisingly my gigantic appetite during puberty has come back these few days.

Been eating chocolate waffle everyday as well without fail. Bp plaza just opened prima deli. Waffle is super nice. One of the few reason to motivate me to buy food everyday.

Measured my weight recently. Gained 1.5kg. Think drinking full cream milk and eating regularly helps. Target is gaining back my 68kg from last time. Now is 63.5 kg. Dropped to 62kg around February period. Damn surprised at that time.

Bangkok at end of year with them? Taiwan canceled. Damn sian.

Have to literally take charge over the fyp group. Not so much input from the others this time round. But both should be nice people. Kind of feel restricted in my thinking because of the topic. Mobile not so for the hardcore gaming people. But it's a good reason for me to pick up unity 3d game engine. Lots of singapore companies require knowledge on that game engine.

Rogue like games. A genre of game I'm not too familar with. Surprisingly the rogue legacy game got even me addicted to it.

Got a feeling might fail this sem.

Tml meeting with old group. Don't know what to share with them. See how it goes.

How not to be nice. A skill I should start learning already. Easily trampled by take it for-granted people.

Fab complain no money eat lunch usually. Actually like almost everytime. When ask special guest Kw to join, Suddenly the pocket grow a lot of money to eat. Even costly pizza place also suggest. Realistic sides of people. But can't blame haha. But at least do it in such a way not so obvious what. -_-". One look and u know what's happening.

words from the heart

Seriously speaking talk to you v tiring.  Don't know what you want.  But never mind.  I'm going to try again and again. Really v tired already. Many times I tell myself to give up. But many times I also tell myself I cannot give up.  If you could give me some initiation that your interested. Even ask me some simple words like how are you doing. I would be v happy already. But no. U haven't.  And I could tell your not a really caring person. Only think for yourself. Things your interested in then ok. Things your not then no. No extra mileage for the other people.  Cannot imagine next time what would happen if I'm in a crisis. Would u run away. I'm typing all these to vent out. Please prove me wrong what I'm thinking so far.

That time in reservist had to change back to my old iphone. And then came across the conversation we had last time. I really miss it. Went back to see the photos we took together. I told myself at that point of time I really need to try again. But no. It's like "oh" "interesting" "i see" "ok" .  Average two three words at most. The whole holiday I didn't manage to ask you out at all. I don't know why at all. Are you really that busy or just not interested at all. I cannot help myself but to overthink things. Even the timestamps of both of u I keep stalking. I know it's like hours of conversation u both had. Really want to know what are you guys chatting about seriously.  It's the 7 month already. 5 more and we are on our seperate ways.  Damn fast.

I'm going to try again

Seriously please do not message each other in class secretly. Don't know why both of you cannot talk in class openly but message each other like so secretive like that. Last time fetch to choa chu kang. Now fetch straight to your doorstep. Even a normal person would overthink at this stage already. So tell me how not to overthink. Frankly speaking I am still in the stage where I could not trust you at all. Don't know is it because of me, or you. Or just that there's no channel of real communication at all. Seriously just show some interest in the things I write. Ask you come sch together no. Ok fine. In sch also have to act don't know each other in year 2. Improvements now already. Still remember that day where you avoid me like a plague on that day when I attempt to go home together.   The god damn hand phone screen is the only time and place I could only communicate with u. So please do me a favor and just show some real interest on the god damn screen

don't know why I change course because of you that time. Really regret it. Or maybe I'm just plain stupid.

I'm going try again. Keeping my fingers crossed and I really hope to see some improvements. But I seriously doubt it

Prove me wrong please. Show some interest

Or just simply end my suffering. By telling straight in my face not interested at all. Or both of you get together.

Would be really happy on both. Not in the middle. Ultimate sian.

Seriously doubt u would even remember this blog link. But if your reading this. Then this is really what I think

confused

Really have no idea what to do already

retry

Taking down the post

Never mind try again

it's 2/7 already

really want to give up haha.

close to it already

This whole thing is really stupid

累

Want to end this early

If its yours its yours

As long as got made in effort

taking a very neutral stance now

Gosh. I just changed back to iphone. And just can't help myself from seeing the past messages.

Was feeling like to give up already.

come on. No. Pumped. You can one

thinking i'm sounding more and more like a despo

seriously i think i should back off a bit

more and more unlike myself

even the things i'm good at i'm not good anymore

don't know why

disappointment after disappointment

going to keep trying.

i hope it doesnt wear me out

i really want to save this r/s

but it's either a 1 word reply

or an uninterested type of reply

or no reply

move on man

i think i have 0 talent in modelling

that aside,

i can't stand myself not noticing

everything is in a mess, everyone around me keep saying why stay on, not appreciated or anything, or being too nice

decided

going to try for a month

1st July 2013.

reminder to myself

still think if want to talk about unfair, i'm the most unfaired

definitely deserving much better

just happened stumbled upon this video while searching for my game music


damn awesome oh my! especially combined with guitar

still rememeber last time for that whole week. once i reach home. turn on my playstation 1 and play this game. day in day out. awesome track. awesome gameplay. awesome romantic story line.

brings back a lot of memory
how time flies. now it's gonna be playstation 4 soon. and i'm older by a lot.

More thoughts poured in

I think I deserved better

没心情

to do anything

seriously am i just this -little- much?

just a simple question how am i doing just makes my day

that aside

i don't have much time to practice for my game competition happening on 24th may

and for 12 june

friends is coming down to support me

on their own will

i love me,myself, and i

frustrating

Went to watch iron man 3 with alicia

Audrey came much later. Like after the show has shown for 30 minutes?

Might as well don't come? Lol

Iron man 3 was good. Don't know why people say it was bad

Went to eat after that and random walk at the toy store. then somehow talked about my childhood super soaker water gun. Where last time I got a gigantic size water gun

But Then sadly I dropped it on the neighborhood road, to be run over by that car

I cried all the way back home

Still remember that evil driver only smiled at me and drive off

If i know who is thst guy now, seriously I'm going to make him sorry


Lol. Just kidding

So long ago already. But its a childhood 'scar'

So.....


I Want to watch evil dead next
They say it was damn scary
Don't know how true is that

Proalbably gonna watch with audrey, since the as scaredy cat alicia didnt want to watch no matter how hard I persuade. See how it goes again






No matter how busy one is, if want, will make time

Thinking probably I should just focus/bother about things that matters.

Two way street

Too long never update here already. I have a lot of things to say

But Then, on a second thought, I don't think I want to let it 'known' yet.

It's not the time yet

To summarise, I'm doing well. I love my life even more. I'm seriously rethinking my options.

Testing phase u could say
At this point of my life

So far negative. Still think it's very one sided . Which to me, it isn't good



TO BE USED, OR TO USE

something to think about

Maybe I should give up trying so hard

Let them come in naturally

Going earlier to school Tml to meet up and do my a1 earlier

Objective. I can both eat my lunch and finish. Instead of staying at home doing nothing

Focus focus focus

I love me, myself and I!!! Oh yeah

(Y)@_&(y)

I still feel the future is very cloudy for me

Weird people doing weird things having weird thoughts

Watched the hobbits in the afternoon in my room with the theater speaker. Quite long didn't watch movies on it already. Shiok ahhhh!!! The hobbits is quite boring the middle, but overall quite nice bah. A lot of action scenes

Thu going to play LAN. And teach people how to play. A bit uhhh. Zzz. Could be fun though haha

Eat!!! Until I grow in mass. Time for a change

Easier said than done usually haha.

See how it goes again. Start simple, and progressively make more effort

I still feel if 1 day. Anybody that has walk into my life. If I could just speak freely on what's on mind about them, I could have speak an essay. Should be quite an exciting experience

But usually I'm just holding it up there. Never letting it out

Some things just takes 2 hands to clap. That's the hard part

Eye noticing behind instead on me. Still quite sad come to think of it

I should probably stop myself again. Bad habit is coming back

Ok sleep please. Stop typing here. Bye

Looking on towards the brighter side of things

First aim. I'm going to gain back my mass back. The last time I weigh myself, was 64kg. Aim is to get at least 69kg

To do that. I shall eat properly. 3 meals a day instead of 1

To do that. Even though my family doesn't even cook at all. Maybe only except Chinese New Year. I shall not laze around and don't buy food

Yes and that means spending that precious money of mine

Once 3 meals is a necessity, I will move on to 5

I don't want to sweep tomb Tml. So I shall continue sleeping

Childish thoughts haha

Whatever.

I just love my dog. He's just quietly Lieing beside me on my bed. :)

No complains. No wanting anything. Simply just want to be beside you

Life still goes on...

Just watched warm bodies just now

Oh my I seriously throughly enjoyed the show

Can't remember when was the last time i enjoyed a show in cinema already... From the start to finish

The new perspective for zombies, the soundtrack, the plot, the you love me I love you trick flick, somehow all just appeals to me

Wanted to watch this show since I last saw the trailer while walking around in town

Now the sound track in that show called hungry heart... I just can't stop listening to it!!!

Heard the book was much better though. And the ending was different from the movie. Where in the book the father died, but the movie he didn't died

Maybe I will rewatch again somehow in the future. I don't mind

Still don't like the trying-hard side of Alicia. Really annoys me somehow

I mean come on, be yourself. Don't try to act someone you aren't. Nothing wrong with being yourself. Will die is it?

Downloaded lightwave and installed on my desktop. Was fooling around with it just now

Everybody's got a hungry heart~ everybody's got a hungry heart~ ding ding ding ding.. Ding dinggggg

Gym Tml after school with fatty foo. Gonna be a long day. And here I am... still can't sleep!!!

Don't know what happened to Doreen. Ain't replying or anything. Maybe too caught up on work. See how again

Shit. I'm back to my old self

But....

This suspension is killing me

I rather someone tell me earlier than later/last minute. The worse case is forcing myself to ask straightaway at some point.

Anyway... Back to 2nd session of mahjong that time

Went to Kee chun's gf house at serangoon to play. Both rich man son/daughter. Both at bungalow one... Zzz. 不同命 haha. But I'm not envious at all. Seriously. Money value to me right now isn't that important. It is certainly higher now. But certainly not to a point which is everything to me.

We played 2 rounds... Started in the afternoon around 3pm? It was fast... I think the first round ended at 5pm. The exact last round me full tai zi mo. Song ahhhh!!!! 3.20 from each of them... Hahaha, all of them complained to wear good luck charm, sit my good luck position for round 2.

So they drove us to NEX to buy shiling chicken. Not to baddd. Last time I ate was like last year. Went back Sharon's house to eat the chicken and her maid cooked chicken rice also. Talking about exact compability haha.

Started round 2! Lost a bit for the first 2 winds. But then went on a rampage win for the last 2 round. Keep on 4 tai win somehow. Calculated and I'm the only winner. 10 dollars to be exact haha.

Great fun. But they keep jokingly complained I'm in the blacklist / won't call me to play already haha.

Nice to see Ronald/Alicia/Chenguang after 3-4 months. Went to ps cafe at Ang siang park. Had no idea of where the place was, but quick search of google images and the place looked damn atas. So wore a bit formal.

Luckily I wore the correct dress code. The place there, everyone was wearing dress, high heels and so on. Too high class haha. Ordered fish and chips! Too common I know... But the fish and chips was just so-so. Ordered sides like pencilo something... Long Island like tea alcohol... Could taste the alcohol. But nothing I couldn't handle.

2 of them is in the workforce for quite some time already. So Ronald was showing off his plat card. Haha. So to use it advantage... I told everyone Kee chun told me Ronald's first pay cheque he treated him lunch. Sooooo... Everyone insisted him to treat. HAHA. Karma

Ordered dessert over there after main. The cakes. Omg.. Double chocolate was really chocolate. Could taste the heaviness of it. GAO GAO. So god damn full after everything. Too bad I didn't take pictures of the food

Took a group picture after that. Right at the entrance of ps cafe

Wanted to watch warm bodies after that... But somehow we ended up in mbs. Not knowing what to do. Finally ended up at overeasy at the Fullerton hotel area. To drink somemore -_-"

Ordered the usual shots b-51... I ordered some Japanese whisky don't know what 21 years on the rocks. Don't like the taste of it. Then ended with the usual jäger bomb. Surprisingly no kick from any of them. My alcohol level has really went up

We were talking about clubbing and somehow mention the new zirca... Dream. Which I haven't went in before... St James... Some Alicia friend of hers while in a drunken state make out with some stranger... Butter factory... A place for immature childish youngsters doing their stupid dance and lots of Malays. Personally didn't went in before but heard its pretty bad haha. And some other clubbing stunning story's also. Don't feel
like disclosing yet. Maybe some other time

Going to watch that warm body Tml after school. Planning to leave early from class.
Still want to faster finish study and Fark off. Slow torture in there. I rather finish fast.

Still got a lot of things to update. Maybe I will talk about ice skating thing next time. And that weirdo friend of mine who recently went into talent agency and worked that angelenababy. Omg. Hahaha

Bye

Recently went gym and running again for the past 2 weeks. After an inactivity for around 4 months? I think it's pretty long. Kind of exhausting to do the exercises again cause of the inactivity. Have to keep up these few weeks to get back in shape

Went with that fatty foo to the 4 dollar gym yesterday. Oh my was I quite surprised. He could do a lot more weights already. I guess just 4 months and people could improve a lot

Weigh myself after the gym session. And guess what, 63kg!!! Previously my average was 67-70 kg. I slimmed down for almost 3-5kg! But I couldn't blame anyone cause I'm not eating properly at all for the past few months. Traumatic experiences helps in these aspects too I guess. So please if anyone is reading this, please do not take anyone for granted and treat them as an expendable person. It's really not a good experience. Please do not lead on, and wait for the 'right' time to happen. It won't most of the time. Would be a lot better if in the beginning just be direct. Maybe I should do it to other people next time instead to wake up their god damn ideas.

Put yourselves in others situation, and you will know why they react this way and stuffs instead of waiting for people to tell you.

Really can't understand this kind of people. All of them should just die and rot away for good. Wait and wait. And not even bothering to do anything at all. Not even a glimpse of attempt. Anything 'better' that comes along, and then easily just jump ship

World would be a better place without all these losers. Don't even know what I was thinking in the first place at all. Should have left long ago.

Anyway... I do not know why I drift off suddenly haha. Back to the main things....

So... How I spent my holiday so far!!! Completed the reboot game tomb raider after my last exam. Oh my gawd it's been such awhile since I last enjoyed a single player game. It's so nice and Lara croft this time is a very likeable character. Thoroughly enjoyed it. Took me 2 days to finish. Recently completed bioshock infinite also. 2 days also. Story plot was like inception. Way too good.

Ok skip the boring to know games which most people just don't care. Don't know what people is missing out in life

So beside games... Went out to mahjong... Ice skate... Help sis work... 3d job offer... Lunch with people... Talk cock on whatsapp with people... Candy crush... Talk Cock some more with people on Skype. Oh ya went timbre also on that day. Shall touch on mahjong session first...

First Session of mahjong was with Daryl, Kee chun. Jamie... Whom I do not know at all. Kee chun's friend. Impression of her was so-so. Looks like the not thoughtful type. Why? When arranging tiles does not care about people. And when when draw the tiles from her side. Does not even bother to push the tiles for others to draw easier.

Hahaha. Small things like that is just easily noticeable. Good for her though. Said she going to Japan on Friday. All I could think was radioactive over there hahaha.

Did not win or lose at all. In the end surprisingly Daryl won 3 dollar I think? We went to Kee chun's house. First time for me. Bungalow type. Rich kid. But I know beforehand already. 3 dogs. All look very cute and obedient. There's this 1 dog keep biting and bringing her toy about. Thrower the toy for fun. And she went to catch it haha.

2nd session was with Jamie, Kee chun. Sharon. Went to Sharon house to play.

Hmmmm... I think this blog post is kind of long. So i shall stop here. Shall update it soon again. Or else information overload. Gahaha. Got quite a lot of stuffs to update.

Going to cut my hair Tml... dont think I will dye my hair this time round. cause my ict is coming up in june. Hair colour should fall off already I think... After this hair cut. Meeting up with Ronald, cg, Alicia for dinner to eat at ps cafe after that. The last time we ate together was during Christmas time. Been like 3-4 months already. Planning to wear nicer Tml.

Bye

Both still have the cb faces.

Gawd can someone tell me how to react/respond?

It just tells a lot what's happening without saying a word

The things I'm good at

1)Self learn-ed instrument

2)DIY-ED computers, including paying everything for it myself. Not a single cent is from parents. DIY-ED computer for many friends

3)Good in basketball

4)Good in games. Hands down. Period

5)Usually the one to make the group more lively

6)

Can't seem to think of anymore

I'm just this cui. Even can't praise myself much. I think I should really sleep

死掉算了
睡下去就不要在起来
Living for what? I really don't know.
Put in so much effort and the returns are always so disappointing.

It's always like this and always will be

The world most cui person in the world is typing this now. Never good at anything. Nothing I put effort in just comes to fruit. Should just lay back and rot, silently die off without anyone knowing

Sneaking into little depressions here and then

It's more frequent now

I think I should sleep it off

Side track a bit...

Can't wait for that day to make my revenge.

Muhahahahahahahaha

Then those affected ones will know how I feel

Nobody knows what you are going through unless you yourself went through it

Waiting patiently

I'm usually not this bad, but certain circumstances makes people change

What's the use of being so nice? Might as well make a damn out of others if people don't appreciate what you done

Anyway... Back to the main point

Changi study was good! V quiet place. But somehow I'm really amused by the skytrain over there.

Ya the skytrain that takes us from terminal 1,2,3 and works like LRT

I don't know why I'm so amused by it. Really like the scenery when in inside

Daryl told me to meet him at 星钱咖啡. For a moment I really thought there is such a cafe, I even planned to eat my lunch over there since I never tried before

Then... Reached Changi and was looking for the cafe name over at the directory, then I realized it was a direct translation of Starbucks

-_-

Oh my gawd how stupid can I get!? Haha

Anywayzzz...

Luckily I brought my tumbler, managed to save 50 cents on my drink. The counter girl was so shocked when she saw my tumbler. From just the expression alone, Can know not many people brings tumbler to order drinks

Body language, what a wonderful thing it is. Need not speak a word and you will know what is going on.

Studied for 8 hours straight. Don't know what the heck is the lecture slides talking about. Most of the time anyway. Speed read through some of the last few slides

Managed to finish all the lecture slides and until tutorial 2

Then off we go to play arcade since the Starbucks was so near

So long since I played the arcade

We went to play time crisis 4. Which last time I played until to a point I can literally close my eyes and know where the enemy is coming from, where the bullets will come from

Till stage 2, didn't lose a life at all, while Daryl had to continue 2 times haha

Stage 3 I lost 3 life's and had to continue and finish the game. Don't really remember stage 3, that's why :/

End of the study day, then went back home. 1 hour 30 min of traveling time. Was thinking about what are my plans ahead of the rest of the year while on the train then suddenly saw huay bing on the train. He is working at mbs now. Cooking. Think the last time I saw him was like 4 years ago?

Still don't really like him. A bit fake

But still good to see people from the past
anyway and checking out how's their life now :)

Said he completed SOT. Good for him

Sms-Ing Yuzhen nowadays also. Just random saying hi... And her 你好. Wait a few days.... And say why our conversations always end of with hi. Then it went on from there. Didn't really talk to her last time cause I thought she's really those uncontactable person and anyway most of the time she's a leader wherever I go. Be it in band, cell group... so I have this really bad impression of her

Just random chats like a normal friend. Realized hey... actually she's Quite good to chat with. Don't know what I'm missing out last time oh my gawd. Found out her husband opened a tuition centre... And it's like right below their HDB block. Oh my gawd how convienent can it get!?

Maybe next time I can open a game publication right below my HDB hahahahahaha

Just saying only.

Changed plans with Sophi, said to ice skate at jcube instead. Says she's going to wear pampers to lessen the load of her falling down like a cat

Literally lol-Ed

Still a siao zha bor in my head. But the things she says is just so weird... and interesting bah

Ok off to study the remaining tutorial notes. Don't know who invented this module. Ought to be shot. Till the next time! Bye

世界变了

Been sleeping early these days

Waking up early

11pm struck, and I feel tired

In the past wont at all

Then wake up around 9am, sometimes even 6am

I reach like the earliest among them 3, class, outside, anywhere we go

It didn't even happened last time

Been listening to different genre of songs. Contemporary pop.

Oh my gawd what happened

Otw to Changi now. First time study there. No idea how it is

Heard 3.2k for first day job for security.

Got my chino pants yesterday, can't wait to wear it for the trio birthday celebration happening this march. I'm still left with 30 dollar safra voucher lol. Maybe going to use it to look for new necklace. Pretty sick of wearing just 1

Can see Doreen is a really chatty person yesterday. But really irritating to see keep pressing handphone every here now and then, but then it's a girl symptom. So ok lah. Haha

Trio of us went imperial treasure at ion to eat wanton mee, xiao long bao all these. Food darn nice, was mentioning yesterday why our conversations always end up talking very 理谱 stuffs. Like taking photo shoot of our already eaten food and post it on fb, or about pi sai. Or After eating Mcspicy the butt feels hot. Fun la hahaha.

Mentioning that we 3 of us should go to Taiwan/hong kong. Or both of it after graduation. See how again

Going to rollerblade with the siao Zhao bor sophina after my this week Thursday paper. Says she keep rolling on the floor only, like a cat. Lol. Whatever see how again

Studied almost whole day at smu yesterday. Today going Changi to study. Please help me

Went school specially today to meet up with Fabian's group to eat zi char after their class even though I don't have class.

Guess what, I saw Kimberly chia sitting outside their class! Omg she look pretty in real life

Their class was so big! Compared to mine zzz. Guess I have to live with that until next year

Zi char at that south Buona vista was so god damn nice. Everything was just so nice, the kang kong, ma pian pai gu, and that chicken wing... Wah so crispy and nice can. Everyone of us was like eating so fast, at the end of it everything was cleared, not even a drop on food left on the table

Planning to get my chino pants after food, but then someone suggested to go play mahjong after this... So i canceled my plan to go get pants

Mahjong more important

Hahahaa

Went Fabian house

Played 2 rounds only though, since they had to leave after 6.

So long never touch already, it's been like almost a year. I didn't touch it at all during Chinese New Year. And the Chinese New Year before this.

I even forgot about the scoring system. I knew it like the back of my mind last time. But somehow everything was just lost.

Guess we have to practice things constantly even though we felt we might be 'good' already. Humans are just a memory footprint. The things we touch on must be constantly done to get it into our head and make sure we don't get rusty

Anyway, lost the mahjong. Had to pay 6 dollar. But it's fun, at least for me

Then went back home, touched my guitar and tried to learn that we are never ever getting back together by tailor swift. Really catchy song. Managed to play, but I guess the plucking part I have to work on it some more to get it even more smoothly

Weekend gonna meet with Doreen they all to study. See how it goes again. Cannot study at all now, not in the mood haha

Been sleeping real early these few days. So unlike me omg.

If I wake up early next morning, I think I will go run. Since my ippt window has opened. 200 dollars please wait for me thanks. I will go grab you

New day

Don't know why yesterday was so angry out of sudden

向前看

高兴就好

Crystal said correctly

Why change yourself for somebody that's not worth it

Should have looked out for those bad signs a long time ago already

But I really meant not everything wasn't my fault. Didn't manage to respond properly. But was waiting for answer after I 'done' my part

Kk seriously moving on. This will be my last post on this. I'm going to stop stalking people's page from now on. And whatsapp time stamp. 他们要做什么事是他们的事. Relying on whether she is going to even bother telling me when they going to start. If she doesn't say, I mean come on, don't even bother even being friends. Something is really wrong with the character. If she says, then at least there's still some 'humanity'

Going to get that chino pants soon

Sadly voucher was fully redeemed at that time

Rofl

But getting it soon

Going to slack the rest of the week away. Before studying. Else I will go crazy

Met up with Alicia yesterday. It's been some months since I met her. For my belated birthday present she got me a Starbucks tumbler! Sho nice. Really like the tumbler cause its one of my favourite color

Her whole family isn't active in church already. Except her mum

Nothing much to post. Catching updates soon. Zao. When is my next ice skating session coming!?!! Haha

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XIMhi2MPuaM

Thought this song was really catchy been listening to it

Going to learn the guitar soon

越想越生气

At first thought was my fault

Then keep thinking

I mean looking at the small details

Things just doesn't make sense at all

Getting more and more angry

It's not like I never ask whether want to come and print together or not

Said no. Lazy

And then went off to skip class together

I even qued for that god damn printer for 2 days straight. 8 hours in total

At the end say nothing going on

First time ever bought coffee for me. After game over. Thrown it away.

Wanted to sit down and talk properly about where is this going because its been dragging too long, it's either we move on or together. Even told about it a few days ago

And off to let me see this incident before that happens

I asked him where are you going

Do stunt and told me say going home

Go home? Like seriously?

Even that lying face can tell already

I suppose if I didn't spot won't even let me know about it

Was like so angry and pissed off the whole class and school. Don't even know why I even bothered to print at the end of the day

Will never ever wait for someone. Especially with no credibility.

Should have noticed the look a few months ago in class already. Thought something was going on. But didn't ask

But not everything isn't my fault also.

I don't trust cause there's no real communication between both of us.

Miscommunication

Acknowledging that

Moving on

Bright color shirts and change of hair

Fark up smiling face at Aston and still say planning to reject. Seeing how it goes. Holding on to the last credibility of her mouth.

Nothing to say already

Money and Car is everything.

Yet another typical sg girl proving guys wrong

Fark this shit

insensitive people are the worst

HIHI!!!!

hahaha

so fun! to model after my own kitchen

took me roughly 2-2.5 days to do it

without SLEEPING

at all

didnt sleep at all for like 48 hours or more

omg can you believe it!?

but it was great to model after my own kitchen

feels like a sense of accomplishment

during all that i painstakingly took out my iphone camera, trying to shoot my own floor tiles, wall tiles etc...

trying to align it properly accordingly to a square dimension

to texture my walls

a lot of trial and error

but hey i thought the result came out great for me

i could do a lot more though, didn't manage to model my refrigerator.... kitchen sink, windows and all that due to time constraint

first time i did work so passionately about

thinking back, i like to watch people play games, new games trailers that comes out, no matter what unheard games, i would go and take a look

think maybe that's why this time i really pour out everything and do

starting to believe changing course was a really good decision-making in my life that i did

despite having some wrong intention why i changed to it in the first place

next semester we should be using lightwave, think in the meantime for march holidays i will go and borrow the book and learn it

THE dreaded - february is coming to an end soon...

march has so many things going on!. starcraft 2's heart of the swarm release, crystal and jiwah going taiwan... ok nothing to do with me lol. don't know why i mention this

intending to catch up with old people, like that ping chie, sophina, alicia, ronald.

That disney's ice skating during march also, maybe going down to take a look cause i thought roller blading and ice skating was really fun for me recently. going to have a new hobby soon i guess.

think i got to gym and eat properly. noticing my body is getting a lot smaller due to neglect-ance

can tell my sister is depressed lately. keep complaining about she reach the stage where she just can't be bothered to learn anything new. just waiting to die only, life is boring etc...

the truth is ....

i also thought i'm reaching that stage soon a few months ago also. i keep thinking why life is so boring, and at this age i'm at, i think i didn't really accomplish anything in life. seeing other people at my age is already working and so on. getting to be with people they like ... i'm starting to get really depressed too.

think it's already improving little bit by bit! currently changing my mindset of the way i'm approaching things, trying to make people around me happy by acting stupid once again. feel it's really a joy to make people laugh again, thought i was quite a joker by heart, but it's missing from me these past few months. good to have it back little by little~

ok... back to the boring work i have to rush soon... yawnz. 4 of it! omg

anyway!

cny was boring, the typical routes, my father's side grandma followed by mother's side grandma

BORING

except that 2nd sis didn't want to go and ba nian

so i drove instead

i like my father's side grandma food! not sure why, first time when reach there, i can sit down at the dining table for very long and just EAT

then on to mother's side

not much people there, i think half the time i went downstair's to walk around

ok skip the boring details, cause i think it was too boring lol

no more activities for the night, soooo

i went with my big sister to mbs room and casino

first time stepped into the casino

she sponsored me to go in and see

quite a big opener! although this is not my first time in a casino, i think the last time i went was the gentings one

watched my big sister's husband play, think he won 4k the whole evening

when at the table, and you see people fork out 1000 note, and not only 1, but like 10 plus 1000notes, to exchange for chips, you really wonder why singapore people are so rich

the croupier at the table said this is just the norm, said that there was this time when he worked upstairs, and somebody took out a letter, and the letter contains 50 plus 1000notes, to change for chips

i was like :/

makes you really wonder how did all this money came from

anyway, free food and drinks inside! you can even call the waiter and waitress to make food and drinks for you, and they will deliver it personally to you

but it's only for ruby's level onwards, which i did get in because of my sister privelage to admit one guest per day

quite an eye opener!

anyway, after casino i drove back alone back to home

not sure why, when i reached home, i didn't stop, but i drove down a bit more, and then there i was, in front of the doorstep

i know where exactly it was

like in the middle of the night? 5am

don't know why i did that

drove back home, and off to sleep

been sms-ing people lately, trying to expand my circle

think there's not much of a thought already

okok bye

i just don't know what direction this blog can take

do i want it to be something i think others want to hear?

do i want it to be something i really think and heart felt?

do i want it to be something that i really think and felt but i can't really directly say it here?

help me

the more i think the more it does not make sense to me

it just doesn't adds up

told to dress more nicely

check

seen it together, wreck-it-ralph, ah boys to men 2

check

makes no sense answers

check

if i didn't even see and catch, i guess i would not even be told about it

check

takes some time later on, probably wondering what to explain and immediately send photo

check

how to trust people like that?

the reasoning is totally off. don't know why

i probably should drive to school everyday, see how's the reaction on that face

now i know why there's a saying that typical sg girls loves money

guess it's quite good in a way i can avoid and regret even more if things develop more later on

i just hope i can expect things a bit more forward, and not out of a sudden.

i would break down totally if it's suddenly

waiting for well wish

if there's not even a single attempt, can know it's totally gone already, not even a normal friend

Ok I lied.

I think I want to celebrate my birthday later on

Maybe I could go walk alone or something

Or just randomly go into shops and keep eating whatever I feel like

See no evil hear no evil.

I think I might take the car today to go for random rides to stop myself from thinking

The things I do

The things I touch can never be good at all

I'm such a failure

Emo-Ing day begins

Haha

No idea why keep thinking

Having some random suicidal thoughts. Don't know what I'm living for

Lieing on the bed but can't sleep at all despite rolling about for the past hour already...

Can't believe 3 more days and its chinese new year already!

Don't really look forward to it this year

Maybe except the money part haha

But why don't look forward is because can predict they will ask the same question again

Got think before to avoid this, should I magically disappear on day 1?

Not sure where to go though haha, maybe can find a ulu corner sleep, something like those kind of people sleep on the street

Then get catch by police or something haha

2nd sister of mine is already planning not to bai Nian already. Says she want to sleep at home. Say I have no choice, cause I'm the youngest. Must go

Don't know what kind of logic is that

-_-

I think I'm doing pretty well now. Think keeping a distance and having some new people to talk and chat with really helps. It really changes your perspective on things. At least now, with a new mindset, I'm really not bothered with it. Even if it happens. I think I won't be really affected by it already.

Can sense i'm getting back the original way I should act in the past

Haven't buy new year clothes at all! Went with the "we love tian nose hair" group of us to shop just now. Didn't manage to buy any stuffs at all. Gonna go Tml again after school.

Was eating hokkien mee at Clementi just now. Then random conversation with them, and suddenly I missed bukit batok's hokkien mee and wu Xiang. I think the next outing should be bringing them there to eat.

So many awesome/planned places in my head to go. But it's just ke xi won't be able to join me at all

Next up!!! Chinese New Year!
Meh~~~
Next up!!! Vday!
Meh~~~ next
Next up!!! My birthday!
Yawnzzz~~~

Happening 3 things in a row. Which all 3 I don't look forward to it at all. Talking about combo hit haha

Oh yeah they asked me directly what I want for my birthday today. Hahah. That time for kw birthday I directly ask what she wants. Then now it's happening to me. Karma hahaha. What goes around comes around. Never fails to be really true.

Bye

I want to watch that Stephen Chow movie!

Oh ya wondering who was the one who post that on that facebook sim confession page

"To the girl who is in 322 and 336 this sem,My heart finally skipped a bit after I say hi, many more to come"

Hahaha. So few people in our class. Think it's quite easy to spot.

I absolutely hate the kind of people who ask others to change when they themselves don't want to change at all.

Don't know why did I change myself for something that's not worth it at all.

It's really dumb come to think of it

Kind of losing faith at people bit by bit steadily everyday

It's just so disappointing.

Miss the days when everything is just so simple

*The day I quit is the day I'm dead,
So please stop telling me what to do!

**Should I take a break for 1 semester? I'm considering it already

I must open my golden mouth tomorrow!

Just speak something! Anything~

Life is pretty... Boring

Actually if can I would still prefer if I didn't 'evolve' at all

Makes me even more boring

I thought the Li nan Xing in that show where that mirror guy possessed him, then he talked backwards was like whattttt~~... Was like laughing like nobody business. Imagine everyone talks like that to you, the auntie whom you buy your lunch from , "么什吃要你弟小＂

Hahahahahaha

Total joke

I thought everyone has own inner world. The things they do, the things the say, might not even be the person they are in their inner world.

But I catch something in that show that says:

When a person inner world, and the things they say are the same, that's when the person is really happy

Thought for a moment quite true

But, some things are just meant to be kept inside, if everyone just be like an open book, the world would be like so uninteresting. No effort is needed to see everyone's inner world. Sometimes when people click, somehow their inner world would be slowly shown to you, and that's when things gets interesting

Sundays jamming was good, that new member brought in by Karthic was quite good. His name is jefri, has a set of effect pedals, but the studio's amp could not really handle the feedback and there's this really irritating noise

So much that it affects some of the songs

I thought we played quite good, hysteria and plug in baby stands out. Potential is there, but haven't really talked to that jefri yet, thought the next meeting could talk to him more.

But I thought that old drummer guy we asked him back to sing, he was really such an ass the whole time, speaking as though he gives nobody a Fark, all about himself.

Sophina suddenly contact and whatsapping me lately, thought she's like a damn weird person in the past. But the the things she say is quite weird and... Interesting I will admit. She's participating in that chingay, maybe can go take a look again.

And oh ya, went crystal house to do a2 that time, didn't sleep at all! Should see everyone's face in the morning 8am... Daryl k.o.ed, crystal can do and sleep, do and sleep, ask her to if she really cannot make it, please just go sleep and she kept refusing say," nono! Last day to chiong already" 2 mins later, head and eye close

Hahahahaha

Her mum was quite good, kept asking want breakfast? Want lunch? Want shower? Want coffee? I'm the only one who drinks the coffee in the morning though... Left her house around 11am. Went back home to shower, and left with only 1 hour, I thought I can't lie on the bed at all cause will suddenly sleep, so I took out my guitar to play for 1 hour before going to school

School instant k.o. For me

I think it's still a slow torture for me in class. Don't know the decision for me to change major was correct one or not. I like the 3d stuffs though. I like games and got think before be somebody who produce games. Just that i couldn't help stop myself from thinking the extra stuffs. Looking forward to Fabian, and that fat guy joining us next sem. Then can have somebody to really talk cock with, then won't think so much I guess

Don't know how to face my clique for the next Chinese New Year dinner with them.
Confirm will ask questions. See how it goes again

Planning to start early for com graphic. No time, next wed due. Butttt, don't feel like doing now. Hahaha. Despite saying all these

Feel sorry for the 2 brothers who got crushed by that cement truck. Saw the photo where that elder brother brain was like splat onto the floor. Quite gross. So young and suddenly dead. Thought we should appreciate people more in our life. Don't know when such things will happen to anyone. Touch wood.

Ok bye

And oh yeah! Downstairs that game master store closed down. Was like so sad! Bought from them my console and games for such a long time already. Suddenly gone just like that. Got feelings one. Ok I sound nerd. Hahahahaha

Really bye

我想通了！ &_@

Got to blog about how last subday jamming session went

Went crystal house to complete a2. Finally Swee Swee complete it.
But like super tired now. Didn't sleep at all.

So~ , I will post it up later

*when you are interested in something. No matter how busy you are, there's always an effort to make time.

One does not simply eat Mcspicy and not Lao sai

So unproductive today. Actually quite unproductive for the past 2 days already. 1. I didn't go to sis place yet again

2. Wanted to complete assign 1. But the afternoon i was watching the X yuan su on mobtv until episode 11. The hui ge dream world story arc was like super funny. because of the hui ge acting. he just look funny. not sure why

These few days I kept dreaming too... Although its not some pleasant dream at all. It's regarding my fear of future events which I am predicting it will happen in the back of my mind. I don't want it to happen. But the dream keep telling me what will happen if it does happen. Just keeping my finger cross and trying not to think about it. Can't control the event if it does happen...

Followed by random afternoon nap. And wala... It's almost night time


So I took the initiative to do it.
But I end up reading a bit more... Eat random things in the kitchen, drink random stuffs in my refrigerator. Came back... Read a bit, and off to play game. So... I didn't complete it

I MUST complete it Tml!!! Promise. Die die also must.

Daryl said evening meeting with Kenneth is canceled in the morning cause he has a meeting.

How unproductive can this day get?!

ZzzZzz

Not really looking forward to February.
Firstly there's no target for me at all on vday. 2 days after vday is my birthday... Which again I don't really wish to celebrate it. Actually there's not really any memorable birthday for me. Maybe except that time they 'drove' me to bar bar black sheep to eat and gave me the voucher for topshop which in the end I use it to get my current silver, pixel shoe which I really like it for so long already

The other memorable was when I was young... They celebrated at KFC. But there was so many relatives there and somehow... It's just memorable. Still have the photos... I look awkward though when I'm looking at my birthday cake... Maybe it's because I'm paiseh that time. Haha.

Even younger was when I receive lots of ninja turtle present.

These 3 is the most memorable. Other than that... I think most of my birthday is either quiet with none noticing, or very simple cake with family... If i remember there was one year where I literally slept away on my birthday.. Hahah

My 21 birthday is quite a negative one for me though. Don't feel like going into the details yet... Maybe in the future

I thought it would be quite cool if I can perform to my friends and family next time, maybe during my future wedding/ birthday event if I should have? I know there's a section where the guy would entertain people. I could just call my band and make noise with them, or just a simple guitar acoustic with my future wife. I can play while she sings. Haha

Hope I won't dream that dream again.

Ok lah bye.

Didn't manage to go over sis place today.
Can't climb out of my bed at all.

Managed to finish lab 2, have to reinstall that Ubuntu again and again and again

The stupid installation keep hanging. A simple process like this took me slightly more than 2 hours

Assign 1 I didn't continue at all. Assign 2 I read it. Had a "wow.. I totally don't understand what it's talking about" experience

4 more days to deadline! And I am stuck at these 2

It's just something I noticed. The things we like, we manage to finish it fast. The things we don't like, we would keep dragging and dragging until the very end, then we would drag ourselves to complete it at the very end

Realized my life needs so much more stuffs. At the age where everything just happen fast. I realized I need to have very clear intention of why I am doing this, and what I hope to get out of it...

Kenneth have a project for us, to make a cinema seating program. He said he has a budget of 2k. He's getting Daryl and me and hopefully some other people more to do it. Have to meet him Tml during the evening to discuss about it

Not really looking forward to this at all. Is it because of fear? I think so... I think everyone just fear what we didn't do before... What if we failed to do this project after deadline? What if we can't code this? What problems will arise? What if this what if that

No. I just think we don't need to care about fear. I mean... If we fear everything and anything. Nothing just gets done... Period. True story. Go ask yourself have you get anything done at all?

The moment you step out of your comfort zone is the moment things get done

Ok I know things is easier said than done

Ok! Anyway...

I think I need to stop stalking people. I have a very bad habit of this. I would just open whatsapp and see the last online timestamp of people I care about.

And keep wondering who are they talking to and stuffs like that.

I know there's an option to not let u see the last online timestamp. I did off it before... But after a few days, I would just on it again somehow.

Can't wait to graduate. I think it's just a torture in class with such few people. Luckily I still have the 2 of them to talk with, been trying to get Daryl to open up with me more. I feel so sorry with him in a way that I don't really open up with him in the past.

Really looking forward to jamming with them on Sunday!!! Don't know why so excited.

Asked Kee Wei whether clubbing is confirmed or not. She said not yet. If its canceled I won't be so disappointed actually.

Oh yeah! Have to get back my talking-cock personality back. Realized it was missing from me for quite some time already. Maybe it was due to the restriction I had last time. "It's not funny" and give a black face. It's just so not-me not having it. Even my group realized this. Actually I know it was missing from me for quite some time. Have to try harder. Just feel joyful to see people's reaction and their smile when I talk-cock with them

Going to crystal's place at supposedly Chinese New Year day 4. Mahjong! The last time I touchéd it was like... I don't remember already~ too long. Close to 1 year I guess. Just looking forward to her piano at her room and talking cock with them. And the money... Haha. $_$

Ok nothing is really on my mind now. Bye

1 week break

managed to finish assessment 1 for com graphic yesterday

left with that waste time system admin assessment 1, 2 and lab 2

seriously no idea study system admin for what

went to cut my super long hair which i kept for like 3 months already

refreshing cause it's like super short now

going to help out sis tml... had enough of wasting time during break

going to club on saturday for the lollipop weekend

good lo for them, free entry

T_T

first time looking forward to clubbing~ not sure why

the previous one i was like really drunk

and didn't dance much, K.O. early

but ok lah, i told them my intention was to drink

this time round i won't, i think... haha

not sure why, not a clubbing person, but just that look forward to this saturday

then coming sunday going to jam with new members, the new member sounds zai, heard he has perform for gigs and he has a full suitcase of effect pedals

should i go to taiwan with them or usa with the other clique? still deciding

intend to do well for my last year... and probably it will be my last year of study in my life

no more farking around

unless if something changed my mind to go for digi-pen after graduation

seriously regret i don't really put in effort in my younger days, had the happy-go-lucky attitude last time

less than average marks.

heard about someone trying to take roger's assignment

i mean... taking it is a thing ... the attitude towards learning is another

know how it works

not try to modify it and use it as your own

It just tell's a lot about a person

*i know it's half-truth, still don't know why at this stage it's still this approach... I'm just taking it with a pinch of salt... sometimes i don't really understand what some kind of category of people are thinking at all. I mean i'm not blind, i deal with many different kind of people in the past so... i somehow just know it. plus the actions and things said is like totally different. can just know

Up till this stage, i just have to treat it as if i had made the wrong decision.

have to be really careful not to let people have the upper hand next time already

Can't be really upfront nice next time.
Learnt my lesson.
have to analyze the situation well before going.

it's just not worth it to try to be nice and hoping the other would be nice too



TO END OFF with a high note instead of this which i really shouldn't care about it anymore, or in a direct way shouldn't give a fark about

specially went to learnt it

was intending to show it a long time ago

but somehow i just get the feeling that just not interested at all

so in the end, i didn't

Decided to post this once and for all

haha

pitch funny i know

lol

bye