Wednesday, July 31, 2013

done

said

at the end of the day...

still the same
Time really felt like flying past me like a rocket

Confirmed. Think I'm gonna get weight gainer online

After my this nap. Didnt sleep like almost 24 hours already

Just a few more days. And school life is like gonna end soon already

Met up with gee chuan, wenkai, lyon and shane

Heard a lot of things. Including what's happening to the people around me. Quite surprised at some things I will never know if they don't say. Felt a bit disgusted also.

Networking with people. One of the few advantages I guess

Got lots of things to write, just that don't know how to put into words

nap first bye



Friday, July 26, 2013

I drive bmw

Bus, mrt, walk


Finally can lie on bed.

Sleep.

Bye
Damn tired.

Meeting early

gonna doze off on the bus liao.

guess after this I will go back and nap. And start chionging


Look far.

Think ahead.

See potential



Not many know

give more

take less

Easy to say.Hard to do

It's not about how much a person can give.

but the why

Tuesday, July 23, 2013


Done

Said

at the end of the day...



Anyway I thought the 2nd one was damn nice

Thinking of getting a weight gainer online... at the rate I'm going. Can never reach the target by the end of the year

Think i need an extremely long time for myself also.

Monday, July 22, 2013

Don't get it why I should lock.

Nothing to hide

Anyway korean bbq at east coast  was damn nice. Saw Gregory over there as well. Surprisingly my gigantic appetite during puberty has come back these few days.

Been eating chocolate waffle everyday as well without fail. Bp plaza just opened prima deli. Waffle is super nice. One of the few reason to motivate me to buy food everyday.

Measured my weight recently. Gained 1.5kg. Think drinking full cream milk and eating regularly helps. Target is gaining back my 68kg from last time. Now is 63.5 kg. Dropped to 62kg around February period. Damn surprised at that time.

Bangkok at end of year with them? Taiwan canceled. Damn sian.

Have to literally take charge over the fyp group. Not so much input from the others this time round. But both should be nice people. Kind of feel restricted in my thinking because of the topic. Mobile not so for the hardcore gaming people. But it's a good reason for me to pick up unity 3d game engine. Lots of singapore companies require knowledge on that game engine.

Rogue like games. A genre of game I'm not too familar with. Surprisingly the rogue legacy game got even me addicted to it.

Got a feeling might fail this sem.

Tml meeting with old group. Don't know what to share with them. See how it goes.

How not to be nice. A skill I should start learning already. Easily trampled by take it for-granted people.

Fab complain no money eat lunch usually. Actually like almost everytime. When ask special guest Kw to join, Suddenly the pocket grow a lot of money to eat. Even costly pizza place also suggest. Realistic sides of people. But can't blame haha. But at least do it in such a way not so obvious what. -_-". One look and u know what's happening.


Sunday, July 7, 2013

words from the heart

Seriously speaking talk to you v tiring.  Don't know what you want.  But never mind.  I'm going to try again and again. Really v tired already. Many times I tell myself to give up. But many times I also tell myself I cannot give up.  If you could give me some initiation that your interested. Even ask me some simple words like how are you doing. I would be v happy already. But no. U haven't.  And I could tell your not a really caring person. Only think for yourself. Things your interested in then ok. Things your not then no. No extra mileage for the other people.  Cannot imagine next time what would happen if I'm in a crisis. Would u run away. I'm typing all these to vent out. Please prove me wrong what I'm thinking so far.

That time in reservist had to change back to my old iphone. And then came across the conversation we had last time. I really miss it. Went back to see the photos we took together. I told myself at that point of time I really need to try again. But no. It's like "oh" "interesting" "i see" "ok" .  Average two three words at most. The whole holiday I didn't manage to ask you out at all. I don't know why at all. Are you really that busy or just not interested at all. I cannot help myself but to overthink things. Even the timestamps of both of u I keep stalking. I know it's like hours of conversation u both had. Really want to know what are you guys chatting about seriously.  It's the 7 month already. 5 more and we are on our seperate ways.  Damn fast.

I'm going to try again

Seriously please do not message each other in class secretly. Don't know why both of you cannot talk in class openly but message each other like so secretive like that. Last time fetch to choa chu kang. Now fetch straight to your doorstep. Even a normal person would overthink at this stage already. So tell me how not to overthink. Frankly speaking I am still in the stage where I could not trust you at all. Don't know is it because of me, or you. Or just that there's no channel of real communication at all. Seriously just show some interest in the things I write. Ask you come sch together no. Ok fine. In sch also have to act don't know each other in year 2. Improvements now already. Still remember that day where you avoid me like a plague on that day when I attempt to go home together.   The god damn hand phone screen is the only time and place I could only communicate with u. So please do me a favor and just show some real interest on the god damn screen

don't know why I change course because of you that time. Really regret it. Or maybe I'm just plain stupid.

I'm going try again. Keeping my fingers crossed and I really hope to see some improvements. But I seriously doubt it

Prove me wrong please. Show some interest

Or just simply end my suffering. By telling straight in my face not interested at all. Or both of you get together.

Would be really happy on both. Not in the middle. Ultimate sian.

Seriously doubt u would even remember this blog link. But if your reading this. Then this is really what I think

confused

Really have no idea what to do already

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Monday, July 1, 2013