HI blog!!!
it's been so long since i last visited you!
so long till i felt the urge to delete every single post i had posted on this blog
yes every single post, even those post that i jotted down but in the end concluded that it can never go to see the light of the day
those EMO post u could call it
buy hey , those EMO post is what i really felt at that time/date and is what defines me.
so...
now it's 5.38am in the midnight, was lying on my bed but can't sleep
i found out that whenever i want to go to sleep
lying on my bed , that period is the time that makes me think of a lot of things
my uncertain future, my worries.
was thinking about where i will work next time once i graduate.
currently i'm studying computer science
yesh its those nerd shit
buy hey i like what i study right now
doing computer codes is what makes me as an ET , felt alive really
rushing those assignments, writing out the program, which could take up to 4 days in and out
i like this kind of life, waking up, knowing u need to complete something, rushing it, pulling your hair at times when the program didnt work out
and then when u felt really frustrated when u can't come up with the solution
and i meant REALLY frustrated
and then i would go to my kitchen to grab food here and there
and maybe even outright sleep on my bed
then come back to the com
stare at it blankly again... lOLZ
the cursor flashing
_ _ _ _ _ _
still can't come up with the solution
cursor flashing again
_ _ _ _ _ _
lolz
and then out of nowhere ---- POOT!
your brain suddenly came up with the ingenius idea
lolz and when it work out
WOOT~!
yeah man.
for my band,
two members had already left singapore to study for degrees
since then our band had already disbanded, and you could say at the moment beside school, i think i have nothing really to spice up my life
looking forward to the next new band that the rest of the members are coming up with.
seriously,
typing till now
i had thought to type even more
but lying here on my bed, with my laptop (lolz sound like a song)
i have to THINK about what i type, so as not to offend people
before i really type in
really constrained
hopefully i won't be so constrained next time
want to get out the ET in me
yesh i know a lot of people say i am really a quiet guy
actually no, it is just that i express things differently
i will make it a point to type in something everyday from now on
and lucky u,
cause i know since i neglected this blog for a long time
many out there would assume this blog is dead, and thus not visit it
u visiting it means u care
i could open up here
lolz
i am a EMO kid
k bye
