Went school specially today to meet up with Fabian's group to eat zi char after their class even though I don't have class.

Guess what, I saw Kimberly chia sitting outside their class! Omg she look pretty in real life

Their class was so big! Compared to mine zzz. Guess I have to live with that until next year

Zi char at that south Buona vista was so god damn nice. Everything was just so nice, the kang kong, ma pian pai gu, and that chicken wing... Wah so crispy and nice can. Everyone of us was like eating so fast, at the end of it everything was cleared, not even a drop on food left on the table

Planning to get my chino pants after food, but then someone suggested to go play mahjong after this... So i canceled my plan to go get pants

Mahjong more important

Hahahaa

Went Fabian house

Played 2 rounds only though, since they had to leave after 6.

So long never touch already, it's been like almost a year. I didn't touch it at all during Chinese New Year. And the Chinese New Year before this.

I even forgot about the scoring system. I knew it like the back of my mind last time. But somehow everything was just lost.

Guess we have to practice things constantly even though we felt we might be 'good' already. Humans are just a memory footprint. The things we touch on must be constantly done to get it into our head and make sure we don't get rusty

Anyway, lost the mahjong. Had to pay 6 dollar. But it's fun, at least for me

Then went back home, touched my guitar and tried to learn that we are never ever getting back together by tailor swift. Really catchy song. Managed to play, but I guess the plucking part I have to work on it some more to get it even more smoothly

Weekend gonna meet with Doreen they all to study. See how it goes again. Cannot study at all now, not in the mood haha

Been sleeping real early these few days. So unlike me omg.

If I wake up early next morning, I think I will go run. Since my ippt window has opened. 200 dollars please wait for me thanks. I will go grab you

New day

Don't know why yesterday was so angry out of sudden

向前看

高兴就好

Crystal said correctly

Why change yourself for somebody that's not worth it

Should have looked out for those bad signs a long time ago already

But I really meant not everything wasn't my fault. Didn't manage to respond properly. But was waiting for answer after I 'done' my part

Kk seriously moving on. This will be my last post on this. I'm going to stop stalking people's page from now on. And whatsapp time stamp. 他们要做什么事是他们的事. Relying on whether she is going to even bother telling me when they going to start. If she doesn't say, I mean come on, don't even bother even being friends. Something is really wrong with the character. If she says, then at least there's still some 'humanity'

Going to get that chino pants soon

Sadly voucher was fully redeemed at that time

Rofl

But getting it soon

Going to slack the rest of the week away. Before studying. Else I will go crazy

Met up with Alicia yesterday. It's been some months since I met her. For my belated birthday present she got me a Starbucks tumbler! Sho nice. Really like the tumbler cause its one of my favourite color

Her whole family isn't active in church already. Except her mum

Nothing much to post. Catching updates soon. Zao. When is my next ice skating session coming!?!! Haha

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XIMhi2MPuaM

Thought this song was really catchy been listening to it

Going to learn the guitar soon

越想越生气

At first thought was my fault

Then keep thinking

I mean looking at the small details

Things just doesn't make sense at all

Getting more and more angry

It's not like I never ask whether want to come and print together or not

Said no. Lazy

And then went off to skip class together

I even qued for that god damn printer for 2 days straight. 8 hours in total

At the end say nothing going on

First time ever bought coffee for me. After game over. Thrown it away.

Wanted to sit down and talk properly about where is this going because its been dragging too long, it's either we move on or together. Even told about it a few days ago

And off to let me see this incident before that happens

I asked him where are you going

Do stunt and told me say going home

Go home? Like seriously?

Even that lying face can tell already

I suppose if I didn't spot won't even let me know about it

Was like so angry and pissed off the whole class and school. Don't even know why I even bothered to print at the end of the day

Will never ever wait for someone. Especially with no credibility.

Should have noticed the look a few months ago in class already. Thought something was going on. But didn't ask

But not everything isn't my fault also.

I don't trust cause there's no real communication between both of us.

Miscommunication

Acknowledging that

Moving on

Bright color shirts and change of hair

Fark up smiling face at Aston and still say planning to reject. Seeing how it goes. Holding on to the last credibility of her mouth.

Nothing to say already

Money and Car is everything.

Yet another typical sg girl proving guys wrong

Fark this shit

insensitive people are the worst

HIHI!!!!

hahaha

so fun! to model after my own kitchen

took me roughly 2-2.5 days to do it

without SLEEPING

at all

didnt sleep at all for like 48 hours or more

omg can you believe it!?

but it was great to model after my own kitchen

feels like a sense of accomplishment

during all that i painstakingly took out my iphone camera, trying to shoot my own floor tiles, wall tiles etc...

trying to align it properly accordingly to a square dimension

to texture my walls

a lot of trial and error

but hey i thought the result came out great for me

i could do a lot more though, didn't manage to model my refrigerator.... kitchen sink, windows and all that due to time constraint

first time i did work so passionately about

thinking back, i like to watch people play games, new games trailers that comes out, no matter what unheard games, i would go and take a look

think maybe that's why this time i really pour out everything and do

starting to believe changing course was a really good decision-making in my life that i did

despite having some wrong intention why i changed to it in the first place

next semester we should be using lightwave, think in the meantime for march holidays i will go and borrow the book and learn it

THE dreaded - february is coming to an end soon...

march has so many things going on!. starcraft 2's heart of the swarm release, crystal and jiwah going taiwan... ok nothing to do with me lol. don't know why i mention this

intending to catch up with old people, like that ping chie, sophina, alicia, ronald.

That disney's ice skating during march also, maybe going down to take a look cause i thought roller blading and ice skating was really fun for me recently. going to have a new hobby soon i guess.

think i got to gym and eat properly. noticing my body is getting a lot smaller due to neglect-ance

can tell my sister is depressed lately. keep complaining about she reach the stage where she just can't be bothered to learn anything new. just waiting to die only, life is boring etc...

the truth is ....

i also thought i'm reaching that stage soon a few months ago also. i keep thinking why life is so boring, and at this age i'm at, i think i didn't really accomplish anything in life. seeing other people at my age is already working and so on. getting to be with people they like ... i'm starting to get really depressed too.

think it's already improving little bit by bit! currently changing my mindset of the way i'm approaching things, trying to make people around me happy by acting stupid once again. feel it's really a joy to make people laugh again, thought i was quite a joker by heart, but it's missing from me these past few months. good to have it back little by little~

ok... back to the boring work i have to rush soon... yawnz. 4 of it! omg

anyway!

cny was boring, the typical routes, my father's side grandma followed by mother's side grandma

BORING

except that 2nd sis didn't want to go and ba nian

so i drove instead

i like my father's side grandma food! not sure why, first time when reach there, i can sit down at the dining table for very long and just EAT

then on to mother's side

not much people there, i think half the time i went downstair's to walk around

ok skip the boring details, cause i think it was too boring lol

no more activities for the night, soooo

i went with my big sister to mbs room and casino

first time stepped into the casino

she sponsored me to go in and see

quite a big opener! although this is not my first time in a casino, i think the last time i went was the gentings one

watched my big sister's husband play, think he won 4k the whole evening

when at the table, and you see people fork out 1000 note, and not only 1, but like 10 plus 1000notes, to exchange for chips, you really wonder why singapore people are so rich

the croupier at the table said this is just the norm, said that there was this time when he worked upstairs, and somebody took out a letter, and the letter contains 50 plus 1000notes, to change for chips

i was like :/

makes you really wonder how did all this money came from

anyway, free food and drinks inside! you can even call the waiter and waitress to make food and drinks for you, and they will deliver it personally to you

but it's only for ruby's level onwards, which i did get in because of my sister privelage to admit one guest per day

quite an eye opener!

anyway, after casino i drove back alone back to home

not sure why, when i reached home, i didn't stop, but i drove down a bit more, and then there i was, in front of the doorstep

i know where exactly it was

like in the middle of the night? 5am

don't know why i did that

drove back home, and off to sleep

been sms-ing people lately, trying to expand my circle

think there's not much of a thought already

okok bye

i just don't know what direction this blog can take

do i want it to be something i think others want to hear?

do i want it to be something i really think and heart felt?

do i want it to be something that i really think and felt but i can't really directly say it here?

help me