Maybe I should give up trying so hard

Let them come in naturally

Going earlier to school Tml to meet up and do my a1 earlier

Objective. I can both eat my lunch and finish. Instead of staying at home doing nothing

Focus focus focus

I love me, myself and I!!! Oh yeah

(Y)@_&(y)

I still feel the future is very cloudy for me

Weird people doing weird things having weird thoughts

Watched the hobbits in the afternoon in my room with the theater speaker. Quite long didn't watch movies on it already. Shiok ahhhh!!! The hobbits is quite boring the middle, but overall quite nice bah. A lot of action scenes

Thu going to play LAN. And teach people how to play. A bit uhhh. Zzz. Could be fun though haha

Eat!!! Until I grow in mass. Time for a change

Easier said than done usually haha.

See how it goes again. Start simple, and progressively make more effort

I still feel if 1 day. Anybody that has walk into my life. If I could just speak freely on what's on mind about them, I could have speak an essay. Should be quite an exciting experience

But usually I'm just holding it up there. Never letting it out

Some things just takes 2 hands to clap. That's the hard part

Eye noticing behind instead on me. Still quite sad come to think of it

I should probably stop myself again. Bad habit is coming back

Ok sleep please. Stop typing here. Bye

Looking on towards the brighter side of things

First aim. I'm going to gain back my mass back. The last time I weigh myself, was 64kg. Aim is to get at least 69kg

To do that. I shall eat properly. 3 meals a day instead of 1

To do that. Even though my family doesn't even cook at all. Maybe only except Chinese New Year. I shall not laze around and don't buy food

Yes and that means spending that precious money of mine

Once 3 meals is a necessity, I will move on to 5

I don't want to sweep tomb Tml. So I shall continue sleeping

Childish thoughts haha

Whatever.

I just love my dog. He's just quietly Lieing beside me on my bed. :)

No complains. No wanting anything. Simply just want to be beside you

Life still goes on...

Just watched warm bodies just now

Oh my I seriously throughly enjoyed the show

Can't remember when was the last time i enjoyed a show in cinema already... From the start to finish

The new perspective for zombies, the soundtrack, the plot, the you love me I love you trick flick, somehow all just appeals to me

Wanted to watch this show since I last saw the trailer while walking around in town

Now the sound track in that show called hungry heart... I just can't stop listening to it!!!

Heard the book was much better though. And the ending was different from the movie. Where in the book the father died, but the movie he didn't died

Maybe I will rewatch again somehow in the future. I don't mind

Still don't like the trying-hard side of Alicia. Really annoys me somehow

I mean come on, be yourself. Don't try to act someone you aren't. Nothing wrong with being yourself. Will die is it?

Downloaded lightwave and installed on my desktop. Was fooling around with it just now

Everybody's got a hungry heart~ everybody's got a hungry heart~ ding ding ding ding.. Ding dinggggg

Gym Tml after school with fatty foo. Gonna be a long day. And here I am... still can't sleep!!!

Don't know what happened to Doreen. Ain't replying or anything. Maybe too caught up on work. See how again

Shit. I'm back to my old self

But....

This suspension is killing me

I rather someone tell me earlier than later/last minute. The worse case is forcing myself to ask straightaway at some point.

Anyway... Back to 2nd session of mahjong that time

Went to Kee chun's gf house at serangoon to play. Both rich man son/daughter. Both at bungalow one... Zzz. 不同命 haha. But I'm not envious at all. Seriously. Money value to me right now isn't that important. It is certainly higher now. But certainly not to a point which is everything to me.

We played 2 rounds... Started in the afternoon around 3pm? It was fast... I think the first round ended at 5pm. The exact last round me full tai zi mo. Song ahhhh!!!! 3.20 from each of them... Hahaha, all of them complained to wear good luck charm, sit my good luck position for round 2.

So they drove us to NEX to buy shiling chicken. Not to baddd. Last time I ate was like last year. Went back Sharon's house to eat the chicken and her maid cooked chicken rice also. Talking about exact compability haha.

Started round 2! Lost a bit for the first 2 winds. But then went on a rampage win for the last 2 round. Keep on 4 tai win somehow. Calculated and I'm the only winner. 10 dollars to be exact haha.

Great fun. But they keep jokingly complained I'm in the blacklist / won't call me to play already haha.

Nice to see Ronald/Alicia/Chenguang after 3-4 months. Went to ps cafe at Ang siang park. Had no idea of where the place was, but quick search of google images and the place looked damn atas. So wore a bit formal.

Luckily I wore the correct dress code. The place there, everyone was wearing dress, high heels and so on. Too high class haha. Ordered fish and chips! Too common I know... But the fish and chips was just so-so. Ordered sides like pencilo something... Long Island like tea alcohol... Could taste the alcohol. But nothing I couldn't handle.

2 of them is in the workforce for quite some time already. So Ronald was showing off his plat card. Haha. So to use it advantage... I told everyone Kee chun told me Ronald's first pay cheque he treated him lunch. Sooooo... Everyone insisted him to treat. HAHA. Karma

Ordered dessert over there after main. The cakes. Omg.. Double chocolate was really chocolate. Could taste the heaviness of it. GAO GAO. So god damn full after everything. Too bad I didn't take pictures of the food

Took a group picture after that. Right at the entrance of ps cafe

Wanted to watch warm bodies after that... But somehow we ended up in mbs. Not knowing what to do. Finally ended up at overeasy at the Fullerton hotel area. To drink somemore -_-"

Ordered the usual shots b-51... I ordered some Japanese whisky don't know what 21 years on the rocks. Don't like the taste of it. Then ended with the usual jäger bomb. Surprisingly no kick from any of them. My alcohol level has really went up

We were talking about clubbing and somehow mention the new zirca... Dream. Which I haven't went in before... St James... Some Alicia friend of hers while in a drunken state make out with some stranger... Butter factory... A place for immature childish youngsters doing their stupid dance and lots of Malays. Personally didn't went in before but heard its pretty bad haha. And some other clubbing stunning story's also. Don't feel
like disclosing yet. Maybe some other time

Going to watch that warm body Tml after school. Planning to leave early from class.
Still want to faster finish study and Fark off. Slow torture in there. I rather finish fast.

Still got a lot of things to update. Maybe I will talk about ice skating thing next time. And that weirdo friend of mine who recently went into talent agency and worked that angelenababy. Omg. Hahaha

Bye

Recently went gym and running again for the past 2 weeks. After an inactivity for around 4 months? I think it's pretty long. Kind of exhausting to do the exercises again cause of the inactivity. Have to keep up these few weeks to get back in shape

Went with that fatty foo to the 4 dollar gym yesterday. Oh my was I quite surprised. He could do a lot more weights already. I guess just 4 months and people could improve a lot

Weigh myself after the gym session. And guess what, 63kg!!! Previously my average was 67-70 kg. I slimmed down for almost 3-5kg! But I couldn't blame anyone cause I'm not eating properly at all for the past few months. Traumatic experiences helps in these aspects too I guess. So please if anyone is reading this, please do not take anyone for granted and treat them as an expendable person. It's really not a good experience. Please do not lead on, and wait for the 'right' time to happen. It won't most of the time. Would be a lot better if in the beginning just be direct. Maybe I should do it to other people next time instead to wake up their god damn ideas.

Put yourselves in others situation, and you will know why they react this way and stuffs instead of waiting for people to tell you.

Really can't understand this kind of people. All of them should just die and rot away for good. Wait and wait. And not even bothering to do anything at all. Not even a glimpse of attempt. Anything 'better' that comes along, and then easily just jump ship

World would be a better place without all these losers. Don't even know what I was thinking in the first place at all. Should have left long ago.

Anyway... I do not know why I drift off suddenly haha. Back to the main things....

So... How I spent my holiday so far!!! Completed the reboot game tomb raider after my last exam. Oh my gawd it's been such awhile since I last enjoyed a single player game. It's so nice and Lara croft this time is a very likeable character. Thoroughly enjoyed it. Took me 2 days to finish. Recently completed bioshock infinite also. 2 days also. Story plot was like inception. Way too good.

Ok skip the boring to know games which most people just don't care. Don't know what people is missing out in life

So beside games... Went out to mahjong... Ice skate... Help sis work... 3d job offer... Lunch with people... Talk cock on whatsapp with people... Candy crush... Talk Cock some more with people on Skype. Oh ya went timbre also on that day. Shall touch on mahjong session first...

First Session of mahjong was with Daryl, Kee chun. Jamie... Whom I do not know at all. Kee chun's friend. Impression of her was so-so. Looks like the not thoughtful type. Why? When arranging tiles does not care about people. And when when draw the tiles from her side. Does not even bother to push the tiles for others to draw easier.

Hahaha. Small things like that is just easily noticeable. Good for her though. Said she going to Japan on Friday. All I could think was radioactive over there hahaha.

Did not win or lose at all. In the end surprisingly Daryl won 3 dollar I think? We went to Kee chun's house. First time for me. Bungalow type. Rich kid. But I know beforehand already. 3 dogs. All look very cute and obedient. There's this 1 dog keep biting and bringing her toy about. Thrower the toy for fun. And she went to catch it haha.

2nd session was with Jamie, Kee chun. Sharon. Went to Sharon house to play.

Hmmmm... I think this blog post is kind of long. So i shall stop here. Shall update it soon again. Or else information overload. Gahaha. Got quite a lot of stuffs to update.

Going to cut my hair Tml... dont think I will dye my hair this time round. cause my ict is coming up in june. Hair colour should fall off already I think... After this hair cut. Meeting up with Ronald, cg, Alicia for dinner to eat at ps cafe after that. The last time we ate together was during Christmas time. Been like 3-4 months already. Planning to wear nicer Tml.

Bye

Both still have the cb faces.

Gawd can someone tell me how to react/respond?

It just tells a lot what's happening without saying a word