This whole thing is really stupid

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Want to end this early

If its yours its yours

As long as got made in effort

taking a very neutral stance now

Gosh. I just changed back to iphone. And just can't help myself from seeing the past messages.

Was feeling like to give up already.

come on. No. Pumped. You can one

thinking i'm sounding more and more like a despo

seriously i think i should back off a bit

more and more unlike myself

even the things i'm good at i'm not good anymore

don't know why

disappointment after disappointment

going to keep trying.

i hope it doesnt wear me out

i really want to save this r/s

but it's either a 1 word reply

or an uninterested type of reply

or no reply

move on man

i think i have 0 talent in modelling

that aside,

i can't stand myself not noticing

everything is in a mess, everyone around me keep saying why stay on, not appreciated or anything, or being too nice

decided

going to try for a month

1st July 2013.

reminder to myself

still think if want to talk about unfair, i'm the most unfaired

definitely deserving much better