Ok deleted the front paragraph I think quite bad on my side

Anyway new hobby! Like finally... Make games. Was fooling around with the unity3d 2d native engine. Made a copy of flappy bird which is like called etappy dog. Lol. Posted on kongregrate website and 2 comments for this game was.

1. Why you waste my time
2. Nice dog. Anyway ehhh good try...

Hahahahahahaha. Ya. Got it done like what.  Less than an hour. Hahahahaha.

Making a remake of sonic the hedgehog next. I promise this one is gonna be awesome and will take me some time to do. Hopefully I can get it done by the end of the month of May. Then maybe can re tweak the game play or change how the monsters work.

This year plan.
Firstly
Starting from the most important one. To least

1. Productive Everyday

.... or at least get something done each day.

I know it's fucking hard to get something done everyday. It's always easy to get back in the 'do nothing, play my game, watch my show, sleep for the whole day' kind of thing. My thought on this to prevent me from getting back in this zone is. At least do a 5 min productive thing.  Be it touching that farking dumbell and doing for 1 set before I sleep, solving that problem or bug on the stupid computer. I should make it move left today. I should make it move right next. ANYTHING. To be PROductive before I go to sleep and said I had done something for the day.

2. Earn that money. Store at least 1k. Go on a trip alone for at least a week.

This should have been done long time ago. Embarrassed to say for myself. Not counting last year's decemeber trip to Hong Kong.  The furthest I had went was what... KL?  Lol. I don't even dare to tell my friends I did not even sit on the aeroplane before. People asked where I had been to and I will always try to avoid the question. I'm like reaching my half of a century age life span. I think it's time for me to see the world a bit. Be it spending alone. Which I think I had no problem with. Or finding anybody to go with. At least once a year.
So.... I'm thinking of Taiwan for this year. Target month is August. We shall see again

3. Connect back a bit with my old friends.

This one is hard. Old People categories which i am going to list down starting from which i think i had the most contact with to almost no contact are... ping chie, Jin cai , Melvin, jing jie, Ronald, Rebecca. This people are the one's who define who I was and left something in my life.  Be it the good things or the bad ones.
Meet up once.  Or at least the most minimum I will go is wish a Happy birthday. Anything.  To let them know I do still care somehow even though each and everyone one of us are busy with ourself.

4. Find a church and STAY there

I'm gonna admit. I do not dare say I'm a 'Christian' to my friends. As in I believe there is a God there.  Which I do occasionally think about sometimes.  Hardly. .. but still think about sometimes. I admit I wasn't the c of the c. I do not practice what was said in the Bible. But I think it's time for me to at least attend one like officially.  I do not know which one to go to but if I somebody invites. I will go. Like seriously.  Be it a family church or a corporate one.  Any.

Ciao. Heartfelt words. I think i will get another post saying do I look like I care. Lol.  Cya blog

Unproductive weekend.

Anyway...

Graduation is over!

Worthy friends are there to pay a small visit

Some took leave even. Appreciate that even more

After that met up with the old group for eat. Pool. Eat again. Go Kenneth house to play guitar. And drink at zouk. And hangover the next day. Got 1 of the other group caught my eye sia. Haha. As always no action on my part. What to do :/

Hmm. Many questions and doubts lately also is going on around my head. This week should be a week that those questions and doubts are cleared or at least answered partly week.

Ciao. Tired. Bye bye!  Hopefully I have good news to post the next time I come here.

New beginning since 2014...

Helloooo blog

It's like since don't know how many donkey 'years' since I last visited you

Hopefully the audience here would come back. But I doubt so. It's as good as a dead blog in their mind I think...

Anyway here's an update of what I have been up to since all my 'hate and very torturing last year' which only a very few handful people know. Glad that phase has passed over. Now I roughly know why why some of my friends in the past felt/reacted the way they did.

FINALLY GRADUATED...
it's been like what... almost half of my life span I've been studying? 20 plus years... oh gosh... and to think some foreigner kids outside has their own home... wife... career at my age already. Sometimes I wonder and question myself should i continue studying... or just step out, drop out or something like that like some of my friend... With people still asking why are you still studying... it's kind of an annoying feeling when people ask you like that.

Now... It's time to shoot them back in the face!!!@#^$^&@

Hahaha...

Ok la actually in the back of my mind I'm thinking like that... but then another part tells me actually it's not worth the time sometimes... really... could have gotten a job... amass some money... go out of the country.. without studies debt to pay and so on...

Anyway... The consolating news is that... The job I'm doing now... I LIKE IT :)))))))

Unity3d stuffs... simulation game. Though it's not really my ideal job. But it's something close... AAA title game job...  Don't know when can get

Goshhhhh... it's a good boss here, collegues.  But girls... haizzz.  1 indo... 1 smu girl who recently left. And all guys again.

More or less I think I'm prepared to be a monk already hahahahah.

Tai ji. We love tai ji.

Ok random

Anyway life is... how should I say

It's kind of I'm like preparing myself to enter into my next phase already... Don't know how to describe... it's like the things that i find myself enjoy doing... I'm slowly finding myself fading or losing interest a lot more at times.

I find myself shifting or looking for new things to look out for... Learn... and so on
I find that those few friends around me are a lot more 'important' now. Get called to eat simple lunch,  dinner... Ya i would go. No matter how inconvient for me.

Sometimes i wish people would just stop what they are doing... look at the people around them. Identify those. And make just that a little more effort...

It's April already. This year time seem to pass very fast for me.

Maybe September I should go taiwan and spent some quality time alone

When is that one appearing?  Would really appreciate that one from now. Too many lost opportunities... Too little time...

K bb ;)

waste farking time

machiam backup plan like that

Lost interest

Fast

Nov

And still counting

Gonna take at least 5 years I guess
It's ok la actually. Used to it already. How long liao. Hahahahaha. Too embarrassed to even talk about it

 They say bitten once. twice shy

I say it's bitten once. 5ices shy


Things on my mind right now
Doubts.  Worries for the unknown. The thing that is holding me back from going into full force. Seeing myself shutting up and not enjoying for the holiday. Watching the drama unfold between them. In between of not knowing what I want and knowing what I want.

That is a situation that is really fucked up.

Blog. Can you be my friend for once. Just tell me what to do.

...

Ok the usual no reply.

Blog's own  interest is better. Mine is the most boring. So no further comment. End of story. End of conversation. The next conversation would still be blog's interest.




Never mind haha. I'm used to this kind of situation already. Just sad. No wonder I'm beginning to think going for any event alone is pretty good. Don't need to act like so interested in other people's life and 'entertain' them. Do what i farking like.

Still think it's pretty cool to go for a holiday by myself some day. Anywhere. Just alone

Hot and cold

Cold and hot

Wdf?